Thursday, February 22, 2018

Wi-Fi

How is it possible that my own sister won't give me access to her internet connection so I can go online with my own laptop from anywhere necessary?

She said, “No, Just come over here and get on my computer.”

I'll chalk it up to, she doesn't understand how the technology works rather than what kind of sister is she, and she just finished a B.A. Degree. She truly believes she should not do this simple thing. She is obviously one of these people who believe that a computer and it's access to the internet should be, by all means necessary, guarded against.

Since I have a B.S. In computer information systems, I can tell you that her paranoia is overrated.

Is she afraid I might do something dastardly to her, or that somehow, someone, through me will do something like commit identity theft, or drain her bank account, how crass, does she really hate and distrust me instead of loving me?

I love her. If I were her and she was me I would do it for her, maybe she does not believe that.

She attends Church every Sunday and Wednesday night bible study, as well as work for the missionary board. What lack of faith and trust in the Lord she demonstrates, feeling that she has to protect herself from her own sister.

I have never done anything close to a cyber crime and I would never do anything to harm her. I don't understand this kind of thinking from someone who declares love for God almighty.

The way she is behaving towards me feels like a stab in the heart, makes me not want to go near her for fear of feeling like a criminal, not like her sister.

I am puzzled, hurt and dismayed in a way, she is like most people, not like a sister. Most people believe those of us with a lot in life not similar to theirs is just untrustworthy, undeserving of love, just wrong. In many ways she makes me feel she is not sincere about how she sees me. I can't understand why she feels this way.

She has said we were never close, that I treated her awful when we were children. She called me stupid within the last month.

Growing up, I didn't want her to hang around me and my friends, because she would tattle tell everything we did to my mother. We shared a bedroom, talking late into the night until we fell asleep. I was a spoiled child, the oldest and she must have resented that and maybe still does to this day, I guess. She is the baby of the family, I don't think I resented that, maybe a little, but I'm over it, we're just three years apart. We were children long ago.

I asked my cousin, same zodiac sign as my sister, if I could use her internet connection, and she said, “How are you going to use my internet connection and you're there and I'm here?” That told me she doesn't understand Wi-Fi either. I explained, all I needed was her username and password and she actually said “No, I'm not doing that!” I explained it was really no big deal, it would be helping me out.

Do they not realize that I can walk into their homes and get online with my own device, using the signal from their box, that they pay for every month, for free.I worked for the major internet service provider part-time in sales for about six months making me a product knowledge expert. They both were very adamant, and went on to strongly proclaim that they were,“not going to do it,” so I dropped it.

I was thoroughly put off by their behavior and treatment of me. Is it me? am I suppose to understand this from my one and only baby sister and my oldest and dearest cousin, 1st cousin, my mother's brother's daughter, who incidentally attends Church every Sunday as well.

What do they think can happen if I use the internet connection they pay for every month that allows them to have at least 10 users on their account? Their behavior comes across as selfish, superficial and uncaring showing no love for me, considering my lot in life at the moment.

I suppose what I believe, which is, love always wins over hate, and if you believe in God, then you surely have faith that nothing can harm you in any way that cannot be dealt with in your favor, is not taught at the churches they attend, and the last time I went to church was two weeks ago.

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